Whats In Their Mind?

I seem to find it unbelievable how guys find it so irresistable to hurt someone when there practically giving it there all. I mean yes, sometimes we girls open ourselfs up for that kind or torment but why is it that they take the advantage to just drop you on your face with a simple pull of the worlds carpet that it holding me up. Just suicide bomb me for god sakes its like I've been trampled on, abused, and used for the simple game pleasure of being another name in there god damn book. I've been in love once but believe it or not love is the torture game as well. I mean when your in love the world is like a young girl spinning very very fast in one spot in circles, dizzyness everywhere && your heart begans to pump very fast, but i mean there has to be some point in which the girl becomes so dizzy she falls. Ive fallen && can't get up. He was here now gone but you get over things like that && you have to like accept he's gone but oh well face it he's never coming back. && if he does then your meant to be like the star-crossed lovers of romeo && juliet. I've had guys use me, leave me for others, use me for bets, cheat on me, hurt me, && have me just around for the hell of it. I want a guy who can understand me for me && not categorize me along with another girls cause im just terribly beyond normal. I mean come on you will never find another girl that will actually put up with you && your flaws && deal with your interest or show you there the realist person ever. I want to love but why love those people who are not worth loving. Staying happy is my priority && im deciding to change for the better. :) -anonymous.