HO HO ho..........

Is it just me or is the Christmas spirit gone down for me? Usually at this time of the year I would've been screaming for Christmas to come. My Stomach usually turns and gives me a good feeling of the things to come when I see Christmas lights but lately I don't know. I DON"T HAVE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT! I'm freaking out! I guess it's because I know for sure I can't anything for the people I care about. I'm really trying but I have no money, and yes I've tried to look for jobs but nothing turns up. Either you have to be 18 to apply or they're not hiring at all. I promised my brother a Christmas present, but I guess I should've thought before I talked... Stupid recession. According to my Economics teacher America should be back on its feet by Spring, but it's not a definate answer. So merry Christmas to all and a happy New Years! Hope you have the season spirit.

art of mind

Have I ever told you about the things that make me happy? I don't think I have so I'll tell you now. Books, music, art and recently I've discovered the awesome fuzzy feeling I get from looking at photography. How does this feeling feel to me? It feels like when you first hear those I love you words from the person you'd never thought to fall for. The hugs that person gives you that make you feel like melting, or the blushing you get when they call you by your name and call you babe. It feels like you can counquer anything in life, that there is no one or anything that can stand in the way. It feels like the first day of Spring and when you see the first snow in your front lawn in the morning. Books, music, art and pictures give me that feeling that I can do whatever I want if I put my mind into it. Just knowing that things don't always look or hear the same way no matter how much you try to copy it. Do you have these feelings with things as well? I've been wanting to try and get into photography and create soemthing that will give another person the same feeling I get. I feel like that with everything I love actually, for example books; I'm a writer and when people read what I've written I want them to feel like it's a world they want to live in, like the chracters understand them, and that it'll teach them a lesson in life. The same way I feel when I read a book. With music as well, when I show people new bands or artist I hope they get the same feeling I get when I'm in my room listening to the music while starring at nothing. It's also the same thing with art. God I love that fuzzy feeling I get!

p.sI'mstillcomputerless):

boredom and the cyberspace

So my computer kinda sort of broke so now I've been sneaking into blogger when I'm in computer class. Ooooh.....! The collge thing isnt going so well... and the job HA don't even ask.
I've been looking for help, but there is always something that stops me from going. I take my ACTs this 12. God the end of the school year is approching to fast! I should've done all of this my junior year, but noooo I was to busy making excuses. Oh I think you already know that I mentor the freshmen, WELL they are driving me crazy. They just don't care about their future. They just sit there and expect for everything to fall on their lap. I know my school is easy on us kids with our grades, but we also have to put a little effort into it. Everything is going well in school, have I mentioned I got my best friend back? Well if I haven't I did, but it isnt as it use to be.... My teacher just walked by, god that was a close one. Oh I've showed this site to two of my friends, I kept this site a secret only three people know about it as long as who ever tumbles across it. I MISS YOUTUBE! If I have mispelled anything on this thing please excuse it. I can not go back and change anything since I'm about to leave this class in about 5 minutes, I think.
Have a good day! How are you today? One last thing, I HATE COLD WEATHER!!!!!!!!!!!!! Come back spring and summer, I LOVE YOU!


p.sIhatesmartasspeople!

Whats In Their Mind?

I seem to find it unbelievable how guys find it so irresistable to hurt someone when there practically giving it there all. I mean yes, sometimes we girls open ourselfs up for that kind or torment but why is it that they take the advantage to just drop you on your face with a simple pull of the worlds carpet that it holding me up. Just suicide bomb me for god sakes its like I've been trampled on, abused, and used for the simple game pleasure of being another name in there god damn book. I've been in love once but believe it or not love is the torture game as well. I mean when your in love the world is like a young girl spinning very very fast in one spot in circles, dizzyness everywhere && your heart begans to pump very fast, but i mean there has to be some point in which the girl becomes so dizzy she falls. Ive fallen && can't get up. He was here now gone but you get over things like that && you have to like accept he's gone but oh well face it he's never coming back. && if he does then your meant to be like the star-crossed lovers of romeo && juliet. I've had guys use me, leave me for others, use me for bets, cheat on me, hurt me, && have me just around for the hell of it. I want a guy who can understand me for me && not categorize me along with another girls cause im just terribly beyond normal. I mean come on you will never find another girl that will actually put up with you && your flaws && deal with your interest or show you there the realist person ever. I want to love but why love those people who are not worth loving. Staying happy is my priority && im deciding to change for the better. :) -anonymous.