Prayers

I've never been much of a religious person. I have always believed in god beacause of the religion and faith my parents raised me with, but I did always have doubts. I remember when I was young and in middle school I use to deny the excisitance of god. I did feel bad, but I always thought it was because my parents always taught me to repect god and religions. Although I did always respect religions, I wasn't the type to ever tell people who had a religion to change because I didn't believe in it. I actually always admired them for believing in something and being happy. Now I'm not going to write the next part to get pity I'm just here to tell my thoughts and feelings. My family is poor and we have a lot of problems like many people do, but surprisingly we haven't ended up in the streets and my mom says it's because of her belief in god. Now I never believed that, but I always thought it was awesome how my mom had so much faith, and I believe that because of her faith we'd find money in wideopen spaces anyone could see it, but for some reason we were the only ones who noticed it. She'd always thank god when we'd find hidden surprises. Not to long ago did I find god. Not because any miracle happened to me although I'd see them everyday happening to my mom, but because I don't know it something I can't explain. I know I have done so many sins, but as my mom always told me "god forgives all who loves him." I've never felt better. This is not written to stuff my views down your throat this is just something I felt like writing, bacause today my dad went through a terrible thing and we can not see him at all, but I believe and know god is by his side and he is going to return to us soon.

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this blog makes no sense, but youll get the point. (:

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