stress and real life....

When you're in high school teachers tell you to get ready, they try to prepare you for the real world. They give you advice and as a student, you're thinking, "WHO THE FUCK CARES! I WANT TO GO HOME!" or something along those lines. Don't deny it, we were all like that in some way. Well now I wish I had actually listened to the teachers. I'm at that point where I can't believe I'm here. I thought I'd be in college living with some chick that I maybe got a long with, going to parties and studying hard, but that's not the case. I'm at home and working. Well I was working and it sucked I had to quit. There would be times I'd come back from work crying because people pissed me off and I was so stressed out. Now I'm just stuck at home. I mean don't get me wrong I was like a nerd at school. I always turned my work in and was silent during class. I had As and Bs in class, and I graduated with a 3.5 GPA. I just don't know how I got like this. There's times I hate myself so much! I'm disgusted with who I've turned out to be. Recently I went back to my old high school to visit my one of my greatest teachers. He made me talk in front of the class, of course I lied. I didn't want to disappoint him and say I haven't been to school. I felt so bad. I've told myself this is all part of me learning from life, but I completely hate it. Things will get better, things will shape up, I will one day end up in a good career and not a job..... I hope.......