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I haven't written here in so long. How's work? It's been okay, I'm stressed. How's life? Life is pretty cool. Theres nothing much to say. Life is moving on. I'm about to be 19, it's scary I guess. I want to stay a child. I regret ever wishing to grow up, but I suppose it was going to happen either way. "Enjoy your childhood" is what i say to all my cousins. It's all I can do it's there choice on what they want to do not mine. If it was they'd play with toys everyday. We all change. I've stopped painting, drawing and wishing. It makes me sad. I lost a part of me. I'm still trying to keep wishing. It's weird I haven't felt the passion for anything in a year. *sigh* Oh well move on right? It'll all come back. Can't wait for school to start, I miss learning. Maybe then something will come. Happy holidays! (:

Complications

Life is full of hard things. Everyone has bad things going on in their life, but we all get through them. I've learned at a young age that life isnt fair there is always something to ruin it, but I've also learned we can't let those things get to us because if you keep your head up it won't beat you. You can't let it beat you. Life is beautiful in the end though. It makes us cry, it makes us hate, and it makes us love. Life is also full of lessons that we learn every single day wether we know it or not. "Life can never stay dark there is always lightswitch somewhere." - by a person I once met but never got to get his name.

I got a job at Bestbuy. About damn fuckin' time!

Make a wish (:

Prayers

I've never been much of a religious person. I have always believed in god beacause of the religion and faith my parents raised me with, but I did always have doubts. I remember when I was young and in middle school I use to deny the excisitance of god. I did feel bad, but I always thought it was because my parents always taught me to repect god and religions. Although I did always respect religions, I wasn't the type to ever tell people who had a religion to change because I didn't believe in it. I actually always admired them for believing in something and being happy. Now I'm not going to write the next part to get pity I'm just here to tell my thoughts and feelings. My family is poor and we have a lot of problems like many people do, but surprisingly we haven't ended up in the streets and my mom says it's because of her belief in god. Now I never believed that, but I always thought it was awesome how my mom had so much faith, and I believe that because of her faith we'd find money in wideopen spaces anyone could see it, but for some reason we were the only ones who noticed it. She'd always thank god when we'd find hidden surprises. Not to long ago did I find god. Not because any miracle happened to me although I'd see them everyday happening to my mom, but because I don't know it something I can't explain. I know I have done so many sins, but as my mom always told me "god forgives all who loves him." I've never felt better. This is not written to stuff my views down your throat this is just something I felt like writing, bacause today my dad went through a terrible thing and we can not see him at all, but I believe and know god is by his side and he is going to return to us soon.

-___-"

this blog makes no sense, but youll get the point. (:

How are you?
What are you up to?

song!

Check out Florance + The Machine. It's an awesome band. I feel like running around in the rain when I hear My Boy Builds Coffins. Check it out!!!! :D

up to speed

I miss high school! I ended up going to a community college. I didn't have much money for SFA, but I'm going to make the best with what I get. I still have no job, and it sucks because I really need one. There's bills to pay and family to help. I haven't posted anything because well my life isnt that exciting. Hopefully I start once school starts. How are y ou? What are you doing? You look mighty good today (:

operationbeautiful.com

YOU ARE LOVED AND YOU ARE SOOO BEAUTIFUL. SMILE (:

todays gift :D

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The world crashes around me. I needed you, but you weren't there. You chose to hang out with your friends and drink. I needed you... The decision I made isnt strong; I want to run back to you, but I know you don't care. You sound so calm when I decided to brake up. I believe you never cared. You said I wasn't you, you're right I'm not, but everything just screamed you never cared. I fell in love so deeply and you just didn't care. I did so much for you, I changed so much because of you. I've never had this happened to me. I don't know what to do from here, where do I go? You were the only person I trusted. I'm an idiot for depending on the relationship so much. The only one to blame here is me for being stupid.

eclipse

So Tuesday I had a surprising turn of events. My friend had called me to take her to some school, because she wanted to apply to go to college there. After that was set and done we had decided to go to the mall near by. Well we were by the movie area and this lady came up to us asking if we like Twilight. Now if you read my blogs you know that I hate the movies, but what got me to say yes was this. The lady had two free tickets for the premier and I had heard people were going crazy over the tickets and of course I heard free. Who doesn't like free? So I said yes and my friend of course said yes; she'd die for the Twilight cast. My friend though couloudn't go with me because she had a date with her boyfriend so she gave me hers to take my boyfriend. Well umm... we went but we didn't stay. I know I know many of you think I'm crazy but hey that theater was annoying. Twilight fans were annoying and wierd. Security even had to come in to tell some little girls to shut up. So we left and spent the rest of the night hanging out. So yes I may had to some of you given up the best oppurtunity to watch Eclipse for free but I don't like annoying people. So I haven't seen it. Do I plan on seeing it? No unless somehow, which I do think am going to get attacked by family members to watch it.

Not so anonymous.

Oh, my dear,
Lend me your ear,
'Tis nice of you to hear
Church bells, they ring,
closer, closer to hither
Indeed, 'tis thou, loving.
But, thy borrowed ear,
with most humbleness,
is for news not far from here:

"Don't be alaramed,
[There is no harm]
I feel we're falling back to ground,
[But] Don't be afraid,
[Because for us
Fantazies are our reality's background]
I hear in every word they say,
That even if you don't look back,
be sure and find out who was there,
And what they wore,
and ten more reasons."
All this matters,
when weaving and stitching
and creating and constructing,
our, soon-to-be, love matter.

-irivng

ps. i tried to take your fave song lyrics and manipulate and stuff. i hope you like it and that i didnt ruin it(:

pudding!

School is out, and all I have been doing is sleeping til 12:50. I also go out though so don't think I'm boring. I'm excited to start life now, it's crazy to me how a couple of weeks ago I was whinning about school and now I wish I had done more while I was there. I miss it, but well I'll be heading to college soon. I got accepted to the school I wanted to go, but I don't have the money, so the goal for me is to go to community college, work and earn enough money to put myself through school. These are the goals I have for myself!

so many things!

Where do I start? Well let me start with the oldest of news. Senior week was this past week. We went to the museum of art, it was pretty nice to see all the art work, and the different ways artistical skills are expressed. It could've of course gone better, but I won't mention that part. I didn't go to the zoo though. I've been to the damn zoo god knows how many times, and I'm one of those people who barely step out into the sun and I turn super dark. No sir I don't want that. I had to go to the doctors though. I wasn't getting enough sleep since my dog escaped and I guess you can say he was what made me feel better sleeping in a bad neighborhood. I went to the IMAX of course, that place never gets old. Desirea, our chaperon that never got to learn his name, and me were walking around the little bridges that cover the pond they have, and we see this little kid walking around and fell in the water. We all ran to help him, but another little kid beat us and pulled him out. After asking him if he was okay the little boy runs out of the bridges and yells to his classmate, "I'm a hero!" We thought it was the funniest thing ever, we couldn't stop laughing. Once we got to the school around 2 we got our group back together and decided to go to Dicks. I have never heard of that place and I will never go back no matter how funny it was. In case you've never heard of it they basically treat you like shit and make fun of you. Example: Our waitress thought it be funny to make hats for us and label us. Julio was virgin for life, Desirea was I love weed, Nadia was my balls itch, Belinda (we think the worst one to be labeled) no boobs with a stick figure with two dots, I was closet lesbo, Fransisco was Boy or Girl?, Osiel was I love boys. I'll put up a picture of all of us so you can see us with the hats. The next day was field day, but the forecast was that it was going to rain, which it didn't, but hey they let us all go home. Our plans for that day was to go to the movies, but then the guys changed thier mind it they decided on bowling but they changed their minda again and it was back to movies. Desirea and I decided to ditch them and go to the mall which was pretty fun. We ate a lot of food! Saw a mexican colored Hello Kitty. That was my Senior Week, while the lower classmen tested. HAHA BITCHES! Today well today so far is a shitty day my dad started to drink again. He says this is his last day, but I don't know wether I should believe him or not. Also today is the day his mom died.....



The Group at Dicks

prom=soreness!

Prom was fun. I danced! I don't usually dance. I loved it though, I am so sore. I am never ever wearing high heels again! I don't understand how anyone would wear them I rather walk on rocks then wear heels. But yes I will never forget prom night. I'm happy I got the chance to go to prom with my boyfriend. He danced too!

<--- me and joanna btw

unnamed

look forward to the dreams

the escape from this place

happiness, peace

is the promise of the man

get lost and recover

this is the land he promised me

need a laugh?

Need a laugh? Or you have nothing to do and you're just passing through well take a look at this my dear person. It has some really funny ones and some sad ones.
thewritingsonthestall.com/women/ (couldn't paste the link :/....)

Happy Birthday to me! :D

I've finally hit 18! Woo, not so exciting it feels the same as I did when I was 17 and 15. "Don't die on me!"

An about me.......(hope you like it?)

Who am I? Well I don't even know the answer to that question. I guess I'm going to start out with, hi my name is Elizabeth Diaz, but everyone calls me Liz. I'm 17 years old and I'm a senior at Sunset High School. I'm both loud and crazy and shy and quiet. It depends who I'm with, but I mostly love being loud and outgoing. My friends know this side very well. I have an awesome boyfriend I can be myself with all the time. He's also my best friend. I can always count on him with anything. We are getting married (: I know I know dumb cliche teenage love, but hey I'm a teenager still so I have the right believe in that. I don't believe in myself alot, but I try to be positive all the time. My friends say I'm very good at helping and being there for them. They also say I'm to nice, which by the way I do not agree. I can be mean in my own way. Yet some people say I look scary at times, that mostly always makes me laugh. I do care alot about people though, mostly the poor. My school is a pretty good school, it doesn't have that many fights as it use to. The people in it annoy me though. Yet I find them all very interesting. I can be smart and I can be dumb, but the dumb part is just for show. I love proving people wrong. I live in the city of Dallas, its a beautiful city if you ask me. There's alot of art and different types of people everywhere you go. As long as you know where everything in Dallas is you'll never be bored, there is always something to do here. It's kinda looking more like mexico everyday though. XD I've pretty much recently noticed Dallas is the place for art and fashion. I'm not really the fashion type of person though, I'm more of a "put on anything that looks good" type of chick. My interest you may already know if you read my blogs, but if you don't it's art, music, books, and photography. You can NEVER go wrong with that. I'm not all that fond of politics and the law, but I do know what is soemtimes happening in our world. now this is just my opinion and I know he hasn't been in office long, but Obama isnt a good president at all. I think we were better off with Geroge Bush, at lest he did stuff and didn't screw up alot. Oh and I hate cops, not because I'm rebel because I think I am a rather "good girl", but yea I hate cops. They're supposely protecting us yet they screw with us all the time. Well this is me so far I'm still trying to find myself like everyone else. I hope this wasn't rather boring, but if you found it uninteresting. SCREW YOU ASSHOLE! :D thank you. (:

p.s. I can sometimes be a smart ass :]

2 a.m. emergency

Busy busy day yesterday. It all began by my parents taking me to Carlton to go get a hearing aid for my mom, for you see my mom can't here a lot so she has a bit of trouble at her job. After that they took me to go get my dad a bus ticket for Georgia, he's been talking about this truck one of his brother's gave him for months now and he finally went to go get it. I took my mom to the store and to pay some bills, and went back home to wait til six so we could leave because the women had said the bus would be there at 7. Lies! Once it was around 6:30 we left to the bus station, and checked for the time, turns out the bus wasn't getting there til 8! We stayed there and I took the chance to observe people. I was close to crying about three times; some families are just so close to their love ones you can feel the hurt when the love one has to leave. Finally after waiting my dad's bus came around 8:55 p.m. We waited for him to get on the bus, so we could leave and waved from a distance as the bus left the station. The last bus of the day. One we arrived home my brother had to from hanging out with friends of mine. The way everything was going you would've never expected for us to land in the emergency room at 2 a.m. Dog bite. My brother apparently tried to be nice to my dog, but he knows the dog hates when hes close to him when he's near me, anyways my brother went for a kiss and the dog suddenly just bit his lip. I freaked out when I saw all the blood. My mom and I ran around the house trying to put our clothes on while my brother kept rushing us to get to the hospital. I couldn't even remember where the hospital was at, I couldn't remember where anything was at actually. My brother kept telling me to "fuck the cops" and run red lights, but I was freaking out that I didn't. Well maybe once or twice....... Poor kid though he got a total of four rabie shots, and he still needs more, and stitches on his lip. Yet the kid had a sense of humor. He kept telling me how he looked like a "beast" and how it was so "gangster" of him. Kid cracked me up, and he danced in his bed while under anesthesia. I didn't alot just little naps here and there, and I was super hungry. We didn't end up leaving til like 2 p.m. I'm so hungry and tired.

for a person

thank you for the flowers, thank you for putting up with me,
thank you for being there, thank you for being a friend,
thank you for making me smile, thank you for understanding me,
thank you for being stubborn, thank you for bein loveable,
thank you for just being you. iloveyou(:

7th period

I'm sitting in computer class, not my idea of having for I have finished this class before. To my left my wife is next to me reading this, shes tearing because I have mentioned her. Hey Lulu you suck, SIKE, I love you ^___^ Mr. Christian is reading over my shoulder. He is funny....."He is the best teacher in the World. Without him as my teacher I would be lost. I will like to thank him because of his inspirational guidance". Mister has said. XD

dot dot dot *sigh*

Life is full of lessons, but you are the one to choose if you want to take it. Some people are there to support you and some are to drown you.


I've lost myself in these couple of days, I'm use to having people push me but now i'm alone. My teacher said day dreams equals success. Why don't I see it just yet? Maybe I will all I have to do is wait.

The news about Haiti are devastating. I wish I had money to offer them or things to give. I wish I was old enough to fly over there and help with whatever I could. My mom said that happened to them because they practice voodoo and magic, I think she's being quiet unfair to them. Then again she's like that to anyone that something bad happend to.

Thoughts are running wild in my head but I can't write them down anymore. I've given up on my dream of being a writer.....It saddens me.

This site was introduced to me by a blogger. http://www.dayswithmyfather.com/#/1 It'll make you cry and feel grateful for the people you have in your life.

Down with tests and exams

Exams Exams they are here. I still don't understand why we have to take about 6 test a school year. From what I've heard from teachers is that Texas makes students take way to many test. I think it's true. I have cousins that live up north and they're barely in sixth grade and already they know how to divide functions. I barely learned that my eighth grade year! All we know is how to correctly bubble in a dumb test sheet. I've had teachers who say they rather teach us important things that colleges expect us to know, but instead they have us learning out of a book. Now we can't even take field trips anywhere, not even to the damn zoo. They make our teachers fill a whole stack of paper work then they have to wait then they have to sign more paper work and then they wait some more, by that time we're almost out of school. I get that maybe the school district doesn't want to get sued because of the previous accidents, but why can't teachers take learning out of the class. I don't know about other people, but I learn by seeing not reading or hearing, and I'm getting bored of the white board with erasable markers. Yes the smart board is pretty neat but a teachers writing comes out like the hand writing of a kindergartner. Well college here I come, I promise I won't let you down when it comes to filling in test bubbles I'm good at that! :D... What's the difference between tests and exams anyways?

cheers to the voices of the hearts

1. iloveyoulikeafatkidlovescake
2. youmakemesmileallthetime,somuchmycheekshurtbytheendofourday
3. you'remyfirstloveandiplantokeepitlikethat
4. imissyouallthetimeevenifijustsawyouasecondago
5. tomeyou'rethemostperfectguyever
6. whenpeopletellmeitookthelastnicecuteguyismileandsayiknow (:
7. whenyouthinkimmadatyouimactuallymadatmyselfforbeingstupid
8. imsorryigetmadeasily
9. you'recutelettersalwaysmakemyday
10. whenitoldyouyouhaveaperfectsmileireallydidmeanit
11. iloveyouforeverandeverandhopeourlovebringsustogetherafterlife
12. iloveyou! :D

nothing but things

Back in school back to the normal routine. It kinda feels like the first day of school in some way, but with the whole entire knowing where you have to go. I had forgotten how much I hate the attitudes of some people. All they do is talk, but once you face them they back down. It's funny in some way, but it's also very annoying. Does any one know anything about astroids??? I have a big paper due this Friday! What have I done? Very little. I just hope I don't fail. The school is freaking cold! Tomorrow there's suppose to be some cold front and alot of ice, to bad I'm still going to school. DISD won't close the school if they said the sky was falling. Christmas was way better than I thought, and New Years was pretty okay. How was your holiday? I miss staying at home being all lazy and raggady.







p.sihavefallenmoreinlovewithyousweety.