When light turns darkness

Never thought I'll take a picture of that.

Robots in disguise

As a child I always though people weren't real. It's hard to explain what I mean, but I'll try my best. Everytime I looked at a person I always wondered who they were, where they were going, and what they were thinking. As a child I thought that everyone was a robot except for me, and that drove me to not trusting people. I thought that as soon as a I went home the people I knew and everyone else disappeared. I would drive my self crazy trying to picture what they were thinking; how they saw things through their eyes. I would always wonder how I or anyone looked through their eyes and if they had the same curiousity as I did. I remember I would stare at people and try to put myself in their position, but I would just end up with a headache. I would sit outside my porch and stare at people pass by or through their windows and wonder. I can't believe I was like this when I was young, but I guess everyone was. I still get curious, I still sometimes over think way to much to the point I think everyone doesn't exsist and I'm just alone. I wonder what people do with themselves, what the person you think is the wierdest person ever is going through their heads. What the reason people do things. I guess this all relates to psychology, it's all in the mind. Damn I've lost my thoughts, and maybe I've just confused whoever is reading this. I'm sorry? It's just something I've been thinking about today.

your blogger,

Liz

I'm such a fool

Final exams are here and summer is right around the corner. What to do this summer?? Been thinking to much and questioning alot of things. I've pretty much gotten to the point I think I'm being lied to, and I pretty much hate that because I shouldn't be thinking like that. I don't know seems to be the answer to alot of questions. I should stop not knowing and start thinking, but thinking gets me confused. I should really really stop making excuses. Today was pretty good you could say, but it was still crappy. I need my escape, I really do love him. I just need someone to come and slap me and tell me what's wrong with me. Enough whinning lets get down to business. How was your day? How is life? I was going through my stuff, because well I keep notes of everything, especially music. My friend calls me a music expert, which I am not, I just happen to know bands and artist. I should just like write down 5 bands and artist people should check out someday. Well anyways to the what I found thing. I like the stories the Taks always has. For some reason they're always interesting, well I found this quote or part of the story I really loved, because I found it very true. "You an never really gain time. On the other hand, you can never really lose it either. The only time is present tense; only most of the time we're too tense to be present." I had another one, but it seems I've lost it. Let's have a serious time to ourselves lets see if you don't agree.

your blogger,

Liz

Radiowave (:

Ever felt like you couldn't breath from the list of things you had to do? Now you know how I feel. "One step at a time." I have to do this, I have to do that, I have to sign up for this, I have to bite my nails waiting for that. It'll all be over soon, can't wait til I can relax and just wait for something to hit me. I miss the good ol' days. I wish I could go back to my sandbox years, those were always fun. "Look at the sky, its huge isnt it? Your dreams are pretty big, but you'll get there kid. All adventurers do." I've been trying to start writing again, but the ideas run wild once I touch the page with my pencil. "Just relax. They'll come when the time is right." So when is the time right? I need to start excercising, I may not need it but I don't want to end up sick when I'm old. Hopefully I get a job during the summer, I would love to take some yoga. I have a list of things I want to do and get during the summer, hopefully they all come true. "Don't use try when setting a goal. Don't question it, don't wait for it." May 24 was pretty cute, I really loved Sunday <3"You'll go far kid." Well so will you, you'll make big things happen. Have you stopped to smell the flowers recently?

your blogger,

Liz

Downtown Adventures

dance dance dance, its good being a teenager

10:07 p.m. just got in from being outside. Being lazy makes you loose balance, that's what I learned today. Neighbors thought we were crazy because we started dancing, but its cool we're uh teenagers? Wow I've stared at this thing for a long time and I haven't written anything. So I'm going to stop now...

your blogger,

Lizz

Wish the hot sun would go away :/

"09!" screamed the senior side. "2010!"screamed back the junior side. "09! 2010!" back and forth til the principal told us to calm down. It hasn't hit me yet that i'll be graduating in a year. I still remember walking in through the school doors as a nervous freshmen. It's very true what they say about four years going really fast. I still can't believe this, maybe it'll hit me later on or maybe once I'm up on the graduating stage. It's like watching a movie about yourself and you seeing yourself, but you don't feel the emotions. Well goodbye my junior year hello my senior year. Soon I'll be going to college, hopefully somewhere far away from Texas. I'm dead tired from todays excitement, but my day isnt over just yet. All I want to do is take a nice nap! Any plans for the future?

your blogger,
Lizz

(: <3

Well you've done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracksand now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run outI'll be giving it my bestest

Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn someI won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yoursWell open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love

Listen to the music of the moment, maybe sing with me, I love peaceful melody

It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

Do you want to, come on, scootch over closer dear

And I will nibble your earI've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I'll be saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do

Our name is our virtueI won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love, love, love

so please don't please don't please don't.There's no need to complicate'cause our time is short

This oh this oh this is our fate I'm yours

Oh I'm yours

I won't hesitate no more

Oh no more no more no more

It's our God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure

Theres no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more

This cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

To many things at one time can really drive someone mad

Wierd how I had this image in my head all day. Today was pretty wierd, I got to get out of class today and get people out of theirs. My mind is pretty blank, I had about a page, maybe not even a page, but I had some things I wanted to write. Funny how I suddenly forgot. I'll write them later if I do remember.

your blogger,

Liz

Walking can really make you run into wierd people

11:44p.m., dead tired but inspired. Never had one of these, so I want to expirience. I might just delete it sometime, some day, maybe in the near future. What gave me the inspiration? Some thing I was reading by some girl, and well I always wanted to have one. Don't have much in my life, but im sure i'll make it interesting in some way. Hmm wonder if it'll attract anyone's attention... I'll start by telling about my tiresome day. Woke up at 8 a.m and well that's way to early for me on a Saturday, but I really wanted to go to the JFK memorial in Downtown Dallas and to the Holocaust meseum with my history teacher who said "it was a offiacially unoffcial, I was at the meseum and my students happen to show up." We had to meet him at 9:30 a.m. at the JFK memorial but well my friend was running late, so I had to wait for her but once we went it was to late so like any other teenager we took the day to do whatever we wanted. Ofcourse we went to the Holocaust meseum since we've never been (and man that place is so sad but very eye opening). Did I mention it was raining? Well yea it was raining and we were soaking wet, but we didn't care. We walked and walked all around Downtown until our feet felt like we couldn't take another step, so we decided to take a train to some record store I've been to before. We were getting our tickets for the train, but we've never used one since we always got out tickets from the bus. Well while we were busy trying to figure it out some man on the other side of the railroad tracks asked us if we needed any help and by then my friend had figured it out, so we said it was ok. Some homeless guy approched us asking for money and we gave him the change we had and he walked off. After waiting for sometime another homeless man approched us and asked us for money and well we didn't care because since they need it more than we do so we gave him a dollar, and yet he asked if we had more money! We said no and he asked me and I told him I didn't have any, and the man stood there and stared at us and ofcourse we got scared. The man that had offered us help before told the man to leave us alone and the guy went off on him. The guy called the cops while the homeless man walked away leaving a trail of cuss words behind. The train finally came and we got on and so did the man that helped us, still on the phone with the cop. After hanging up he comes up to us and says that panhandling is against the law, but since we "didn't know" he told us it wasn't our fault; now I don't know why, but the movie Enough with Jeylo ran through my head, and I felt that he was strange. He got off on the next stop from where he first started and walked off, me and my friend just sat there with the same thing running through our head, Enough. Later on my friend lost her phone in Neimen Marcus. We searched and we searched, even the manager from the store searched, but nothing turned up. We called the phone and texted, but no one answered. We were so worried about what my friend's mom would say so we didn't want to leave Downtown without the phone, but evetually we had to. So by the end of the day we had no phone and now my feet hurt, but other than that dilemma the day was a pretty cool day. (:

your blogger,
Liz